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Johnny Depp Actress:
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Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind Singer:
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Gankutsuou Game:
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+In My CD Player+ >> Godsmack: Awake
1. Sick of Life
2. Awake
3. Greed
4. Bad Magick
5. Goin' Down
6. Mistakes
7. Trippin'
8. Forgive Me
9. Vampires
10. The Journey
11. Spiral
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Lupin the 3rd
Cowboy Bebop
Fushigi Yuugi
Detective Conan
Fruits Basket
Gundam Wing
Angel Sanctuary
Trigun
FLCL
Tenchi Muyo!
The Slayers
Oh! My Goddess!
Vampire Hunter D
Inuyasha
DBZ/GT
Spirited Away
Princess Mononoke
OK so here's part 2 of wandering, titled 'alone.' I wrote it during Accounting today, so I thought it would be a neat idea to scan in what I wrote instead of typing it. That idea was also kind of inspired by the way Green Day printed their lyrics in their new album. So anyways ... here ya go:
Hope ya liked that. Sooo ... I don't know if anyone really read the blog I posted yesterday (I deleted it cuz I thought it was stupid _<) but I had on there how much I hate bugs and also how I can go on and on about stupid things that make me angry. Anyway, you're about to get a taste of that. And I hope you can catch the humor, and the idea that I'm not really a raging psycho XD. (something that CHCA never picked up on ... cursed fools)> I fucking hate ants. I'm just going to come out and say it to start things off. They *REALLY* piss me off. They think they can just take over wherever the fuck they want and eat anything they come across. Well not today, Mr Ant, today you messed with the *WRONG* person. Would you all like to know what happened to bring this on? Not really? Ok, I'll tell you. It really goes back to this past Saturday. Bri, Cat and I all went out (YET AGAIN) Homecoming shopping ... this time for jewelery. And afterwards we met some new friends of mine at a Battle of the Bands at a local college (and that kicked ass ^_^). Blah blah, anyways, at some time during the course of the evening, and while I was driving, I handed my new pack of Orbit gum to whoever was in the backseat at the time. Assuming they wanted a piece, they took one, but instead of returning it to me, wedged it in the middle of the backseat. So, the past couple days I noticed a few ants here and there (and come to think of it, I noticed a tiny bit before I even picked up the girls ... but in a different spot) and took note of a small ant mound that had formed in a crevice of my driveway, right underneath my car. Oh and also ( I should mention ) before I picked the girls up, my brother and I had spent an hour or so, and about $7 completely cleaning out my car: vacuuming, washing and even spraying it on the inside with strawberry scented stuff to make the smell of Raid (from a previous invasion of those tiny bastards) and my grandma dissipate (which worked great, my car smelled so good for once ^^). And that brings us to today : after I got home from work, I opened the door to the back seat to get my backpack and what not out of the car, when I see this ungodly horde of ants herding around a pack of orbit and some things in their way. So of course I'm like :: WTF :: So my first thought, since it's Orbit gum, was that my brother was involved, since he *is* incredibly addicted to the stuff. But, of course, he wouldn't have anything to do with it once I told him to come clean it out. However, upon further mentation I realized what had really happened, apologized to my brother and preceded to drench those irritating lilliputians in ample amounts of Raid. Oh you best believe I soaked their little mound-sweet-mound next to my car too. Then I had to whip out the vacuum to make sure those loser-encrusted (haha Cat XD) little shits had a dusty and irreputable journey to the afterlife. And now, only after smelling like heavenly strawberries for 3 days, my car smells like Raid again. Yummy.Not to mention I feel like ants are crawling all over me. BLECH _
I'm on a beach, I can feel the sand giving way under my feet as I walk awkwardly along. I'm blindfolded, as all I can see is the black cloth covering my eyes. The air is comfortable and the wind is blowing. I can smell the all familiar scent of salt air and my feeling is of confusion. I have my arms outstretched, trying to find my way through the sand and I hear voices. I hear Cat, and sounds from her of joy. "Oh! You've found me!" she says and laughs. I turn in her direction."Cat? Cat, where are we? What's going on?" But I only hear her laughter and voices of another man as they walk away from me."Cat?! Wait! What's going on here?!" She's gone. I sigh. I hear other girls, their sounds of joy when their lovers find them, remove their blindfolds and walk off together. I can't remove my blindfold. As simple as the task may sound, it is impossible for me to remove it myself. It weighs heavy on my head, depressing me, burdening me. Why haven't you found me yet? Come remove my blindfold for me. Give me direction, I am lost and cannot see. Shall I sit here, in the cold sand and give up? Or is it worth pressing on, are you coming to guide me? My feet are tired, my head is pounding. I can't bare much more. Please, if you're coming, hurry to me. It's your decision to remove my blindfold. I'll be wandering around this world without you.
Let's see ... I haven't blogged since ... Saturday was it? Ya, I got the Sims 2 on Monday (^_^) after traveling damn near 25 minutes out to Super Target to get it. But WOW ... this game is awesome. You can completely customize your sims ... down to every little facial feature. It's scary really. I made a Sim rendition of Davis last night and I don't think he'll mind me postin it up ... so here ya go: (I'll get a reference pic up whenever I can scan one in)
heres another cute one I found just plain funny ^___^:
I'll take some more screens a bit later so y'all can see it. I must've sat there the first hour or so of playing with my mouth gaping open and my eyes as wide as they could go :shock: yea, pretty much like that.
I'm at work right now aaallllll alone in the office. Everyone else is at a funeral right now for an employee's relative. So keep her in your prayers, I know it's always hard to lose someone. I dunno, I guess I shouldn't be bloggin at work, but I'm just tryin to stay busy ^_^. I've got some streamin techno radio playin in the background from D I G I T A L L Y :: I M P O R T E D. It's all instrumental stuff but it's kewl. I tried to buy the new Green Day CD before coming to work today but damn Best Buy didn't have it. 'It's late' they said. I'm just gonna have to stop going there for new releases. I mean, I KNOW we had a hurricane and all, but I thought Best Buy would be one of those stores to bounce back and continue on like nothing happened. Instead tho, I'm gettin all my new CDs and games at Target - the place I'd think least likely to get new releases in on time right after a hurricane of that magnitude. Oh well.
I am so excited about Homecoming! I bought another dress on Monday (ya that makes 3 HC dresses I've bought haha but they ALL totalled $100 ... not bad). Get this: all black, corset, lace-up in the front, spaghetti-strap dress, about knee length in the front, sloping down to ankle length in the back. How much was it? $150 ... on sale for $20 o.O I'm sorry sir, but you can't beat that price. It IS the epitamy of perfect as far as dresses go for my vampire theme this year. I'm going to replace the black ribbon in the front tho with a red one, to match the black armwarmers with the lace-up red ribbon that I got, along with the black and red heels. Like so:
I did return one of the dresses today tho (the $75 dollar one - givin me some extra cash to spend XD), and now, with the dress, shoes, armwarmers, and fangs, so far my Homecoming total is only about $75. Which is about how much I paid for just my DRESS last year. So I think I'm doing pretty good iffin I do say so mahself. ^_^ So anyways ... thats all I got to say bout that.
Ja ne~!
OH an by the way, we got our new postage stamping thingy set up in the office today ... it is SO kewl. It seals and stamps the letters in one passing thru. Sugoi, ne? It also weighs the letters and automatically sets the postage rate. Meh, thought I'd share that with y'all. ^_~
...I don't even know where to start. Today was shitty. I'm so pissed off right now ... so much that I'm probably going over board with it all ... but I've got other reasons that just aren't as surfaced as my current woe.
So today, I'm excited because I'm going to try and see if theres a store that has The Sims 2 instock (it came out on Tuesday, but damn hurricane Ivan prevented me from buying it until today). My bro and I go to 3 stores, 2 of which weren't open, before going to Target and, after asking an employee, find the game - not even on the selves yet. I was SO happy! I was thinking " YES! I can't believe I actually found the game today! I get to go home, load it up and spend all afternoon, all night and all the next day playing. Life is good for once. "
One tiny thing I should've noticed tho, was the silver bar running across the top of the box reading "Special DVD Edition." I glanced at it thinking, 'Oh kewl, I get a special edition ... wonder what the DVD means ... prolly just a behind-the-scenes bonus disc type thing. Oh well .' OOooooh but no. It couldn't be just that. THE ENTIRE FUCKING GAME NEEDS A DVD-ROM TO BE ABLE TO RUN. WTF. You're probably saying to yourself, " Well? Whats the deal with that? So what?" Well, I HAPPEN TO BE ONE OF THE ONLY ONES WITHOUT A FUCKING DVD ROM. MY MOM's GOT ONE (that she doesn't need) AND MY BRO's GOT ONE TOO. Sorry for all the yelling ... I just wish for once that something dealing with my computer would be simple and straight-forward ... FOR ONCE. I have been waiting for this game for almost a year. It was slated to come out in Spring 2004 ... but that got pushed back to Sept. 14. This summer, $300 was spent upgrading my computer with 768 MBs of RAM and a semi-top grade video card, JUST so I'd be ready when the game finally came out. But now, (unless things turn out to where I can return the game, which is highly unlikely) I have to spend another $45 to get a new DVD rom ... Life sucks.
And now, I think, after being loveless for 4 months I'm just now feeling withdrawals. I miss having someone to love, or havin the feeling returned. It just seems now that I have no one, eveyone else has someone. Its all a big conspiracy is what it is. I tell you what. *sigh*
And now I'm so bored ... just sitting here looking at my opened Sims 2 box ... just laying there screaming at me, "Why don't you play? You've had me for 6 hours now and still haven't even installed me yet. Are you too busy? Got better things to do? Thats ok, I'll still be waiting right here for you, whenever you decide to play. I promise I'll be lots of fun. I'm so much better than the first game - you have no idea the things I can do now! Hurry up already will ya? I've got so much to show you!" And now you know just how weirded out I am ... the box is conveying it's thoughts to me telepathically. Save me ...
WOW. That was ... an experience to remember. I gotta think of where I want to begin! (how bout the beginning? K! sounds good! Here goes:)
WELL After I posted that last ... well, post, my battery backup shut off 4 more times. After the fourth one I just gave up and decided to watch Adult Swim until the power went out. I'm not really sure what it is about the eletricity around here, but the substations can only reboot themselves twice before the power goes out for an undetermined length of time. So, as I'm watchin Family Guy - the power goes out once. Damn. It's gettin close. It comes back on tho, so I bascially finsih watchin Family Guy, and then go up front to see what the rest of the family was up to. My mom was watchin the news on the little portable TV we have in the kitchen, and my dad was up there ... eh doin stuff I really don't remember but anyways. The power goes out again while I'm up front, then comes back on after about a minute. Both my parents say "One more time!" as the same thought runs thru my mind. Then my dad goes down to the den and starts watchin whatever TV he can before it goes out for the third time. I tell him to turn it to CH 28 (Cartoon Network for us) so we can watch Futurama. Blah, blah, blah. Then, about oh, say, 20 mins into Futurama, its almost over when the cable goes out. "Nooooooooooo!" I whine as my dad flips thru the channels, but alas, the only thing on is the ant race. Not even an entire minute later, the power goes for the third and final time. Damn. We lost power around 11pm. Now what?! We all sat around the kitchen table for a little while ... then I figured I was tired enough to go to bed. We all slept thru the worst of it - and it wasn't even bad enough for us to have to sleep in the hall - which was very good. Thing was - at almsot the last minute, Ivan turned to the right instead of the left, giving Mobile the lighter side of the behemoth and giving Pensacola and the places surrounding the FlorBama area the nasty side. We were really fortunate. I know of atleast 3 tornadoes that tore thru the city - one went thru the park in our neighborhood not even half a mile from our house. Here, I show you, weeth my map:
So ya, thats about the extent of it. And yes, I know Park looks more like Pork ... but its PARK, OK?! ^_^ I rather like my rendition. So there. *hmph*
ANYWAYZ I woke up about 9 am after every one in the entire world called our house .< For some strange reason I had hot chocolate ... *shrugs* it was good, but really would've been better had we some electricity, or had it been winter. I laid in bed a awhile ... listened to some Ayumi Hamasaki ... then me and by bro played a board-type game ... along with my dad we walked down to the park, climbing over fallen trees and avoiding the fallen power lines ... played on the playground equipment, meant for 5-12 ys orld ^_^; ... my bro and I played hackey sac (sorta - we suck XD) ... drove around the neighborhood, looking at the carnage ... played in the street some more ... ate burgers for lunch (cooked outside on the gas grill) ... drove around the city, only one traffic light was on after all the ones we drove thru - went to the highschool, saw some pretty major-not-going-back-to-school-right-away-type-damage - went to the office, some damage to the higher floors, nothing to ours cept some water in the lobby - went to my granmas old house, nothing happened there, drove home ... played in the street again, this time with some neighbor-kids ... walked around ... called Chris ... ate dinner ... decided to take a shower to cool off before it got too dark to see anything ... coming out of the shower (about 6pm) I hear someone makin some loud noise, but I figure its my lil bro whining about something stupid - but then I see the clock in my parents bed room blinking ... WTF ? *gasp* THE POWER IS BACK ON!!!! WEEEEEEE! I was soo glad when I realized the power had come on and it was staying on! I was literally jumping around and yellin quite loudly. I am SO damn glad we weren't going "for weeks without electricity." It hadn't even been 24hrs! *happy sigh* > AND Once I got dressed I hauled my monitor and computer tower out of the closet and plugged her up. I turned on the TV and was amazed that I'd even get the internet! XD And so, here I am. ^_^ All safe, sound and contented ... Hurricane? What hurricane? ^_~
Thanks so very much minna-san for keeping us in your prayers! I love you all ! XD <3 >
Mwuaahahahhaha! After phonin a few of my friends - it appears that I am, so far, the only one with power ^_^ I might have a full house tomorrow !
ok, so this will be my last post for ... well I'm not sure. We still have power, but the lights have been flickering, and my battery backup for this computer has shut off unexpectedly for the 3rd time. Ivan is expected to hit Mobile between 1 and 3 am, so I, with the rest of my family, will be sleeping in the hall tonight. Maybe it's weird, but I'm scared and a little bit exctied at the same time. After I finish posting this, I'll prolly stay online until the backup goes out again or until I get bored with the computer, then I'm going to unplug it and stuff it into my closet. Gotta be prepared ^_^. I thank everyone for their concern! I feel so loved XD! SO .... ya. I guess that's it. I'll be on AIM ( SN: bloodyveil ) for a lil bit longer incase anyone wants to chat. Ja ne, minna-san! Aishiteru! ^_~
Wow guys ... this hurricane is looking like it's going to be much worse than I expected. It's startin to scare me now, what with all this talk about Frederick circa 25 years ago and not having power for 2-5 weeks (what would I ever do without my computer? *sniff*) . So, that being said, this might be my last post for a long while, depending on where Ivan hits, and how badly he damages our area. I hope it won't be as bad as many are speculating. Today in government, Ivan and Frederick became the topic of our discussion instead of federalism (not like I minded tho, haha). But I'll miss you, jafo and kayoko! waaahhh!
AND, for those who haven't already noticed, my blog, indeed, has a new layout. I felt like the blog was dieing, so this new layout is one bold attempt to recessitate it, along with the plan to continue to blog and comment like I did before my job and homework took over my pathetic life.
SO, right now, in my life I am in big need of some encouraging words. I wrote a poem (well sorta) today in Accounting ... take a gander and let me know what y'all thank, k? ::
A bimestrial sleep might fix this mess But life will not allow me that luxury. My body refuses to let these tribulations Get the best of me. My mind and body, although made as one, Are seperate from each other. These daily doleful thoughts of giving up Or letting go, or wanting more than what I've got Have no affect on how my body runs it's course. My conciousness is lazy, weak and touchy But my fortress, strong and unrelentless, Pays no mind to her complaints. The mind would surely drift and die If not for Body's will to live And although they're not harmonic, the relationship they do share is somewhat symbiotic. Though my body is strong, it lacks the direction and though my mind is weak, it steers the way. I am thankful for the mind, that gives me ways To see the world, but if not for my body my mind would Cease to live.
*yay* no rhymy ... but I likey XD Although I think the beginning could be a bit better. Eh well ^_^
Hi all ... just thought I'd post a lil something to close the gap between my last post and now. I'm really tired because I was up late last night spending the night at Bri's with Cat after a football game and a field trip. Not to mention we went to Pensacola today to shop for homecoming dresses. It was actually very successful - I ended up buying two dresses: one 88$ dress on sale for 65$ and another 50$ dress on sale for 15$. Only thing is, I LOVE the bottom of the 88$ dress, but I LOVE the top of the 15$ dress ... and hate the other parts of both dresses. I'm going as a vampire (no, its not a costume dance, we just want to wear fangs and have an excuse to randomly bite people :} ) and I'm startin to get reallly excited about it XD. I might even buy my fangs tomorrow !!! ^_^ but anyways ... I miss you jafo and kayoko! I wish I had more time and energy to blog and comment like I used too :( . and speaking of energy, i'm pooped ... so im goin to beeddd. Oyasuminasai - Aishiteru minna-san XD
Yea sorry I didn't get around to finishing that post. Main thing is, someone let all the air out of Chris' tire and I ended up stayin out till like 1AM instead of being home by 11. Oh well. Things are alright now I think.
I feel like shit. Plain and simple. The past few days have been UP and DOWN and change on a heartbeat. I've been UP, havin fun with my friends, then DOWN again, worrying about my stupid parents and whether or not Chris really likes me. I'm depressed right now, so I feel like talking about the bad things. So take it. I don't know what the hells going on with Davis right now. I just got done talking to him amd I really don't know what to think. He hits me with this about my mom and bro constantly asking him if hes mad at me. I had no idea this was going on to the extent that it was upsetting him. I don't even know if he knew I was crying during the whole thing, but I guess it doesn't matter. And I guess it doesn't even matter if I'm crying now ... It doesn't change anything. I'm really sorry that Davis was mad about that whole thing. And I hate that my bro and mom are so annoying (not only to Davis, but me as well) when it comes to our relationship.
AND speaking of relationships. I know patience is everything especially when it comes to relationships, but this is gettin to be unbearable. I don't know if Chris likes me or not right now. I don't know if he likes ANYONE right now. He's leading me on if he really doesn't like me. I just want to go to sleep for a while and wake up when I can handle all this shit. I'm so fucking sick and tired of trying to be happy and carefree one minute and then being angry, depressed and helpless the next. I'm tired of being in these situations when there are 2 ways to interpret something: one good, and one bad. And both ways are very possible. LIFE SUCKS. I hate it. Why does it have to be so damn hard? I don't think I've ever wanted to go back to being 5 more than I do right now. Those were the days. When you were too young to worry about anything like Love, Death, Money, Time, Major Responsibilities and so on. I need something to knock me out so I don't have the need to worry. I don't like to be sad. I hate to worry. But I keep getting more and more reasons contributing to what I'm trying to avoid. I hope this isn't another sucky week. I can't take another sucky week. I need something good to happen for once ... just for once ... please. Somebody help me.
Well, I think I shall start with the events of last night, or really earlier this morning, since I remember those the best. OK. Friday, after school and all (nothing TOO amazing went on at school ... as usual ... oh, but wait there WAS! I'll talk about that later tho) went to work, got to wear jeans cuz Fridays are casual jeans day, oh and I also got to go home and fix lunch since I got out at 12:30 instead of 1 thanks to the Pep Rally schedule XD. Then I had to stay at work till 5:45 (I get off at 5) to help with the computer problems until my dad said we really had to leave, since we were planning on goin to a football game later that night and needed to get home and eat dinner before we left.
So anyways, Davidson High was pinned against Mary G. Montgomery High last night at MGM's field WAAAAAYY the hell out - like 30 min away from DHS. We (my mom, dad and bro (yay)) got there at about half an hour after the game started (7:30 ish). We were winning 20-10, it was 2nd quarter and the band was just gettin up to go warmup for their preformance on the field at half time. So, I only got to see Cat briefly before she went with the rest of the band. And I saw Bri, but she was practicin with the Visual Ensemlbe before they went out with the band on the field. So, I'm sitting in the stands with my lil bro, waiting for the band to get back and watchin the game now and again when I decide to call Davis, since he said he was sposed to be at the game that night. But of course, he didn't answer his cell for whatever reason. A lil bit later Chris calls me (XD), lets me know hes at the Ugly Mug and I tell him I'll come by a bit later.
2nd quarter finally ends, score still 20-10 and the band starts to perform. They were good, but I think I liked last year's theme better. MGM's theme was Pirates of the Carribean! Their visual ensemble had the cutest outfits, but they really coulda done better. Anyways, the band comes back and I go walk around with Cat during their 3rd quarter break. Fun fun blah blah so then we go look for Bri-butt and find her, talk talk fun blah anyways.
And so, 4th quarter begins and the score is now 21-17. I'm sittin in the same spot, but now with a senior who graduated last year from DHS. I had psychology with her last year, and I found she was actually kewl to talk to, since I hadn't spoken to her in class. Then Davis calls me back and tells me he's 'hiding from me' (haha silly Davis) but he still wouldn't come over and sit with me :(. We had fun but the refs almost cost us the game! We frickin score a touchdown, but the refs just randomly call an offsides ... wtf mates? Oh well, we ended up winning anyway XD.
(Sorry this post is so loooooong!) So, I couldn't get Cat and Bri to go to the Ugly Mug with me (they said they smelled to bad XD), but we went anyway, my parents wanted to see where it was I had been goin almost every night anyway. But I swear, I was so impatient and I just wanted to get to the Ugly Mug but traffic was bad, and then my dad decided to drive reeeaaallly sloow the whole way there. Jebus.
SO, me, my lil bro, Chris, Randy (aka Bobalso) and Aaron (aka George) hung out at the Ugly Mug for a while, goofed off, whatever. We played ERS (Egyptian Rat Screw), a lil hackey sac and laid on the floor (lol). Ya so about 11:30, we make our way out to the Chris' van, since he got stuck with takin all of us home (haha).
