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Johnny Depp Actress:
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Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind Singer:
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+In My CD Player+ >> Godsmack: Awake
1. Sick of Life
2. Awake
3. Greed
4. Bad Magick
5. Goin' Down
6. Mistakes
7. Trippin'
8. Forgive Me
9. Vampires
10. The Journey
11. Spiral
+Anime+
Lupin the 3rd
Cowboy Bebop
Fushigi Yuugi
Detective Conan
Fruits Basket
Gundam Wing
Angel Sanctuary
Trigun
FLCL
Tenchi Muyo!
The Slayers
Oh! My Goddess!
Vampire Hunter D
Inuyasha
DBZ/GT
Spirited Away
Princess Mononoke
I don't mean to act like I'm self-centered, but has anyone else ever felt unappreciated? I feel like sometimes I do so much for other people but never seem to get anything in return. And don't get me wrong, I don't expect to get anything in return when I go out of my way to do something for someone else, but it's nice to know, even in the smallest way, that everything I do is truly appreciated. And to all my friends who read this, don't take this personally because I'm speaking very generally here. I'm not aiming this at any one person or situation, so don't assume anything. Anyway. I love making people happy. It just makes me feel good inside to know I did something that made someone else smile. And I don't mind going out of my way or spending a little extra money if it gives me the feeling that I made someone else's day just that much better. But you do so much sometimes, and you go unacknowledged for so long that you just don't have that desire to make others happy anymore. And you begin to question; what really is the point of spending that extra dollar or going that extra mile or taking that extra minute just to make someone else happy? It really doesn't benefit *me* any. So I guess that's what I'm feelin right about now. *sigh* Its been like this for me all my life. I wonder why it still bothers me ... I guess I just refuse to accept the fact that people really are unappreciative by nature. Oh well. Guess some things you can never change.
Yay! I'm so glad! And no I don't have to worry about having to study for exams and plan my trip to Numa at the same time!! AND I'll be 18 by then and maybe I can drive by myself!!! OMFG THAT MEANS I CAN GO TO CLUB NUMA!!!!! YAOIIIIIIII!!!! XXDDD XD Yay!!! So anyways.
I saw Shuan of the Dead last night with my buds Davis and Josh. That was a GOOD movie. I'll admit, it's not one of those movies I'm going to be raving on and on about, but it IS definitely worth seeing. Definitely.
Yea, I also had to take the ACT this morning. I hate standardized tests with an ardent passion. I really just wanted to give up like halfway thru the damn thing. I really hope I did ok. More than that I really hope I can get a 27 so I can double my scholarship money. Just ONE point more thats all I want. But oh well. Its in the past now so I'm not gonna worry about it.
Hhhmm. I really hate that my love life is basically nonexistent. I still kinda like Chris, but I've basically given up on him. It's too difficult to figure out whats really going on so ... whatever. Whatever happens will happen and if its good, thats great and if its not, I'll get over it.
Yea I really did have more to talk about but I forget most of it now ... oh well. Maybe later. Ja ne~!
YAY! I got my 'official' homecoming pics back today!! I was so worried they wouldn't come out good but I nearly peed on myself when I saw them. They look soooo damn good. I'm so happy!! XD *shout, flourish* Anyways, I'll post some more pics (I have LOADS to post) when I get around to it, but for now, enjoy my 'official' pic. ^_^ (sorry for the bad quality -_-)
Yea, I guess I could call myself a hopeless romantic. I'm in a really good mood right now ... like I've just found a new love, but its actually quite the contrary. My love life sucks ... like it usually does. Nothing new in that department. I guess it's because I saw another episode of this new show called 'Life as We Know It.' I kinda feel weird watching it and actually liking it because, just by the name, and the fact that it's on ABC, it seems like one of those 'hit prime-time TV shows' that the preps go to school and talk about during class. But then again, I don't care. I really enjoy watching it. It makes me feel all giddy XD ... and schtuff.
And speaking of love life ... I don't remember what post it was ... but I think I said something about calling Chris, asking him if he liked me (mistake) gettin easily put down and then deciding I didn't like him anymore really anyway. Maybe I didn't post that, but now you know. ANYWAYS: It's *really* hard to stop liking him ... I guess I'm just being stubborn but I really am trying not to like him and just forget about trying to get any closer to him than I am now. Oh well. I'm just trying not to think about love in general right now. And that really sucks because I'm a very affectionate person and love to flirt within reason (meaning I'm not loose and wouldn't flirt with just any guy - just to make that clear). So yea. I kinda feel like something in the back of mind is telling me that something good is coming ... like I should just keep on doing what I'm doing and it will happen. Maybe that's what's got me in a good mood: the fact that I feel like something WILL happen, not the fact that nothing's happening right now. So anyway. I apologize for the horrible wording. I could've writtin all that a lot better but I'm distracted and this isn't on the top of my list right now. But don't you worry, I'll be back later and I'll give you a better post. How's that sound? Good? Good. Ja ne ^_~
I meant to post this Friday night, but I accidentally deleted the post and then it took me a while to get around to re-writing it again. So just imagine I posted this on Friday.
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Since I have more bad things to say than good, I'll start with the good. I got a date to homecoming, and even tho its just as friends, I got asked by one of the guys whom I wanted to ask me (that guy being chris). I got my hair dyed the other day and I really like it. Also, we won our homecoming game 27-4. And thats about it for the good.
Now I have a super-sized helping of strife. Hope you're hungry.
This whole week the plans for homecoming tomorrow have changed over and over again. The original plan was to spend the night together (Me, Bri and Cat), then all go get our hair and nails done and get ready together etc etc. But Cat's parents aren't in town, so naturally I can't spend the night over there. And I'm fine with that really. And at first, Bri's parents weren't allowing her to spend the night at Cat's either for the same reasons. So I suggest that we spend the night at my house. But no, Cat wants to stay at her house ... just because her parents aren't there ... ok. Then Bri and I decide to just sleepover here. It's all good still. And since Cat still wanted to get her nails done, Bri and I would go do stuff while Cat and her older sister (Eva) go get Cat's stuff done. But then yesterday, Bri tells me she can't spend the night because her mom got mad at her for the plans constantly changing ... which I found a bit odd ... but didn't argue. So I just tell her to find a ride over here in the morning and our plans will continue, or hell I said I'd even come pick her up. But no, Cat and Eva are going to pick her up after they get their nails done. Uh ... ok then. So today, I decide to cancel my hair appointment after finding out how much it would cost to get it put up ($45!) and figured it was better that way. Also, since I didn't have that hair appointment, it would allow me to spend the day after all with the A-Team (s'what I call our trio). Then today at the football game, I talked to Bri's mom (since Bri and Cat are in band and I don't get to talk to them much) and told her that I planned to come over early and wait with Bri until Cat and Eva picked both of us up. She informed me tho, that Bri planned to spend the night at Cat's house ..... WHAT ?! I explained to her my situation, and she said that Bri had all her stuff with here in a friends car and had never heard of the plan I was told on Thursday night. I couldn't believe it. I felt totally and utterly betrayed and lied to. I was crushed. I thought I trusted those girls ... I thought they were my friends ... I thought I had finally found the girl friends I had missed for so long. *sigh* s'what I get for thinking everything's goin good. It's like that NickelBack song " SOMETHIN'S GOTTA GO WRONG CAUSE I'M FEELIN WAY TOO DAMN GOOD." It's such a true statement. I still had fun at the game anyway. I palled around with Johnathan, Chris and Aaron. They invited me to a church thing after the game but I really didn't feel like going. I came home afterwards, talked to jafo (thanks for bein there for me to talk - really helped) and just kinda moped. And just so ya know, here's just how good my friends are to me: I get a call around midnight from Riley, concerned after talking to Cat and hearing how I was being left out of this "suare" and what not going on at her house. I was crying and I told him the story blah blah .... but then he called Cat back and yelled at her about what they did to me ... AND ONLY THEN DID I GET A CALL FROM ONE OF THEM. Yea, 1 AM I get a call from Cat and she wants to know "whats going on." And "why the hell Riley's calling her to yell at her." Well, it's nice to know you care about me. I presumed to tell her how I felt ( oh yea ... I must include I was never apologized to for this whole ordeal ... they just tried to act like nothing happened ) through hy tears. She was trying to yell at me for saying they were going to drink (and I apologized for that ... and I WAS upset when I said it) and then tried to blame some of it on Davis ( which was most of Riley's doing anyway ). I just can't describe how hurt I was ... and still am ... hearing what they did to me. If they had just come to me and said "Bri's going to spend the night at Cat's because its just easier for them to get their stuff done in the morning" I would've been a little disapointed, yes, but a lot less hurt in the end. I still can't even believe they did that. But it's all over now ...
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I had a lot of fun at the dance tho. Chris and I looked classic together. He got me a rose, and we had our fangs and took our pictures together and danced during the slow songs. It was really a lot of fun. I'll post pics from the dance as soon as I can get them. But for the most part it made me forget about the shit I had to go through with the same two girls who were treating me like nothing the night before. I didn't want it to ruin my evening. I had prepared way too much to let that happen. It was definetely (i really need to learn how to spell that word) a night to remember. So I guess thats about it. Sorry it took me so long to write another post. I've been really busy and just haven't really had much to write about. So, until later, my loyal fans -- Ja ne
