+At the Mo+ Actor:
Johnny Depp Actress:
~ Movie:
Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind Singer:
~ Band:
~ Song:
~ Anime:
Gankutsuou Game:
The Sims 2 Drink:
~ Nails:
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+In My CD Player+ >> Godsmack: Awake
1. Sick of Life
2. Awake
3. Greed
4. Bad Magick
5. Goin' Down
6. Mistakes
7. Trippin'
8. Forgive Me
9. Vampires
10. The Journey
11. Spiral
+Anime+
Lupin the 3rd
Cowboy Bebop
Fushigi Yuugi
Detective Conan
Fruits Basket
Gundam Wing
Angel Sanctuary
Trigun
FLCL
Tenchi Muyo!
The Slayers
Oh! My Goddess!
Vampire Hunter D
Inuyasha
DBZ/GT
Spirited Away
Princess Mononoke
Ya know what?! FUCK YOU, WORRYING! I'm not going to do it anymore! (well atleast about the little stupid things)
Over these past few days when I've really wanted to post stuff but haven't been able to, I've been literally UP and DOWN, or maybe thats more like emotionally, but anyway. Let's see, Saturday: Chris calls (eee!) and invites me to hang out with him and his friends (Aaron and Johnathan) at the mall (since no one had money for a movie XD). So I took Cat and her cousin Trish along with me, so I wouldn't be the only girl. Anyways, we got to the mall and stuff, and saw that Cat's newest love interest (in my terms, her 'man-hooer' or 'man-whore' which basically means any guy one's interested in, no matter if its just a crush or if he's a long term b/f) happened to be going into the mall at the same time we were arriving! So we went in and found Chris and his buds blah blah, talked to Cat's man-hooer blah blah, then we went to play hacky sac at the other end of the mall where there's lots of space because people usually don't walk there very much. But anyway, I've been a real ass about playing hacky sac lately. I'm new at it, so naturally I'm a bit embarrased, playing with Mr. Hackey Sac Expert, Chris over there. So he wants me to play, but I don't want to, but I do anyway, and I'm not really that enthusiastic about it. It was fun tho, I loosened up a little bit, but not really enough to enjoy playing. Anyways, we left there and went to Chris' house (he has a kick-ass room btw XD) and Aaron and Chris both played guitar a while and we goofed off, so on and so forth. (damn ... sorry for the long-posted-ness! and I'm still leaving out A LOT) Then we finally go to the Ugly Mugg (a chruch/funeral home that was made into a coffee-shop .. ya I know weird) and we met some other people there ... blah blah ... Chris was being really cute and flirty and it made me feel really good. I had thought he liked me, but I wasn't very sure of it until that night. And this, of course was my high point.
And now onto the low ... Monday, during lunch some guys get together to play hackey sac outside next to the cafeteria, and since Friday the girls (well minues Bri on friday b/c she was in Connecticut) and I started sitting outside to watch them play. Monday, I decided to try and play, but again I was being really unenthusiastic about it. It felt really good that night tho, because Chris invited me to the Ugly Mugg again to study with him - that was really nice XD. But anyways, today ... ya today was prolly the worst. I was totally being an ass about playing today ... I hate myself for it. But this is why I've decided to screw worrying about looking stupid or embarassing myself. I'm going to have fun playing tomorrow, and hopefully Chris will see that I can actually want to play, and that I can be more than an ass about it. I hate that it took me this long to see this. But I can't change the past, and the only easy day was yesterday. Some days you're the pigeon, some days you're the statue.
But anyhow, children. I hope you have learned a valuable lesson. What that lesson is ... well I'm really not sure, but it's important I know that. Salutations and Ja ne ~!
~Owari~
posted by: Jafo (reply)
post date: 08.24.04 (9:53 pm)
hope things go well. above all else, learn to enjoy yourself and have fun. ja ne.
Reply to: Jafo
Ahhh ! jafo I'm so proud! You said 'ja ne!' XD *pats head*
posted by: Jafo (reply)
post date: 08.25.04 (7:20 pm)
Reply to: deathangel
why is that a big deal?? i've said "ja na" a bunch of times before. "ja ne" is just the same thing is it not?? (no, seriously is it??)
Reply to: Jafo
no there's actually a diff. but i cant remember what it is. eh well. and hey, i never here you say japanese ... i dont know im really tired right now ... and stuff ... wee. *falls face forward onto keyboard ... asleep*
