+At the Mo+ Actor:
Johnny Depp Actress:
~ Movie:
Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind Singer:
~ Band:
~ Song:
~ Anime:
Gankutsuou Game:
The Sims 2 Drink:
~ Nails:
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+In My CD Player+ >> Godsmack: Awake
1. Sick of Life
2. Awake
3. Greed
4. Bad Magick
5. Goin' Down
6. Mistakes
7. Trippin'
8. Forgive Me
9. Vampires
10. The Journey
11. Spiral
+Anime+
Lupin the 3rd
Cowboy Bebop
Fushigi Yuugi
Detective Conan
Fruits Basket
Gundam Wing
Angel Sanctuary
Trigun
FLCL
Tenchi Muyo!
The Slayers
Oh! My Goddess!
Vampire Hunter D
Inuyasha
DBZ/GT
Spirited Away
Princess Mononoke
Yea sorry I didn't get around to finishing that post. Main thing is, someone let all the air out of Chris' tire and I ended up stayin out till like 1AM instead of being home by 11. Oh well. Things are alright now I think.
I feel like shit. Plain and simple. The past few days have been UP and DOWN and change on a heartbeat. I've been UP, havin fun with my friends, then DOWN again, worrying about my stupid parents and whether or not Chris really likes me. I'm depressed right now, so I feel like talking about the bad things. So take it. I don't know what the hells going on with Davis right now. I just got done talking to him amd I really don't know what to think. He hits me with this about my mom and bro constantly asking him if hes mad at me. I had no idea this was going on to the extent that it was upsetting him. I don't even know if he knew I was crying during the whole thing, but I guess it doesn't matter. And I guess it doesn't even matter if I'm crying now ... It doesn't change anything. I'm really sorry that Davis was mad about that whole thing. And I hate that my bro and mom are so annoying (not only to Davis, but me as well) when it comes to our relationship.
AND speaking of relationships. I know patience is everything especially when it comes to relationships, but this is gettin to be unbearable. I don't know if Chris likes me or not right now. I don't know if he likes ANYONE right now. He's leading me on if he really doesn't like me. I just want to go to sleep for a while and wake up when I can handle all this shit. I'm so fucking sick and tired of trying to be happy and carefree one minute and then being angry, depressed and helpless the next. I'm tired of being in these situations when there are 2 ways to interpret something: one good, and one bad. And both ways are very possible. LIFE SUCKS. I hate it. Why does it have to be so damn hard? I don't think I've ever wanted to go back to being 5 more than I do right now. Those were the days. When you were too young to worry about anything like Love, Death, Money, Time, Major Responsibilities and so on. I need something to knock me out so I don't have the need to worry. I don't like to be sad. I hate to worry. But I keep getting more and more reasons contributing to what I'm trying to avoid. I hope this isn't another sucky week. I can't take another sucky week. I need something good to happen for once ... just for once ... please. Somebody help me.
posted by: Jafo (reply)
post date: 09.08.04 (10:15 am)
*hug*
it'll be alright.
i remember that in school, everything sucks, and events that would take years to unfold, do so in the span of a single day. up one, down the next. a very vicious cycle. feel comforted that you are almost done. it'll soon be over and high school drama will slow to a reasonable pace. just remember to breathe sweetie. it'll all be ok, soon enough. ja na.
