+At the Mo+ Actor:
Johnny Depp Actress:
~ Movie:
Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind Singer:
~ Band:
~ Song:
~ Anime:
Gankutsuou Game:
The Sims 2 Drink:
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+In My CD Player+ >> Godsmack: Awake
1. Sick of Life
2. Awake
3. Greed
4. Bad Magick
5. Goin' Down
6. Mistakes
7. Trippin'
8. Forgive Me
9. Vampires
10. The Journey
11. Spiral
+Anime+
Lupin the 3rd
Cowboy Bebop
Fushigi Yuugi
Detective Conan
Fruits Basket
Gundam Wing
Angel Sanctuary
Trigun
FLCL
Tenchi Muyo!
The Slayers
Oh! My Goddess!
Vampire Hunter D
Inuyasha
DBZ/GT
Spirited Away
Princess Mononoke
New month, new layout. This is actually a reincarnation of a previous layout from a previous blog of mine that I had before switching to tBLOG. And I woulda stayed there had it not been for their damn ad banners they decided to suddenly press upon me. OH well ... (the guy in the banner by the way is Johnny Depp)
I've picked up my Janne Da Arc CDs and started listening to them again. I forgot how great they are ^_^ . I can't understand most of what they're saying but damn, they're just the greatest band ever. Can't deny it! XD
I hope everyone had a great weekend. Mine went something like this:
FRIDAY Btw, my middle/grammer school bud Lindsey moved back from Pennsylvania (like I thought she would ^_~) so I'm glad to have her back! Anyways - Friday after work, I went home and Lindsey came over about 6 and we chilled and waited for Cat ... who we had to eventually go and pick up since she was taking a while gettin ready, but it was all kewl cause Linz and I went to KFC and ate popcorn chicken XD. So then, we drove to my future home near the college I'm going to be attending next fall (it was my granma's old house before she moved earlier this year) which also happens to be like 2 minutes from the Fairgrounds. Oh, and the fair was in town this week also btw. So after pickin up Cat, drivin across town and chillin at that house for an hour or so we left about 10 and went to the fair for Midnight Madness. And I need to just add this in: I have always had a high respect for cops, especially since a friend of mine's dad was a cop, so what I'm about to tell you was really disapointing for me. But anyway. As we pull in, two cops are directing us, one showing us where to park, the other pulling us into the space. We get out, and one cop yells " Oh look, its a John Kerry fan who can park straight! " ( referring to the John Kerry sticker on the back of my car ... ) I couldn't believe it ... and then as we walk away he says " Better make sure your seats aren't wet when you come back! " WTF mates ... not only was that simply uncalled for ... but it came from a figure that I had always looked up to. Fuck that. Thinking about it now I really wish I could've said: " I really had a lot of respect for cops, but now, I see you really aren't anything more that what everyone says. Thats really sad and disapointing. I hope you feel better now. " But ya know I only think of things like that to say after the fact. Then it just does no good. *sigh* So anyway. Midnight Madness was a frickin blast. Linz, Cat and I had an awesome time riding all the rides. I'm so glad we went. Then, about 1:30 AM, we decided to head home. And after walking that hellishly long distance to the car, we get in and guess what ? THE CAR WON'T START. Brilliant. It doesn't even turn over. Looks like a battery problem ... so blah blah blah we get stuck in the parking lot of the fair until like 3AM before we can finally get someone with jumper cables big enough and an engine strong enough to jump us off. And as it turns out, my battery was fine. It just needed more water put in the cell things. Big fucking coincidence tho, huh ? I thought so. But no matter how many ways I think about it, I just can't find away to blame it on those cops. Damnit all. I'm kinda glad it happened tho, because Cat wanted to sneak out later that night and I really didn't want to, but it so happened she was too tired to after we finally got home. ^_^
SATURDAY Linz and I palled around, went to the mall etc etc. before we dressed up in our costumes and went to the long-awaited McGill-Toolen vs. Davidson football game. (we won 35-10 btw XD) Game was kewl, I went and saw Tim who's in the band for the opposing side, introduced him to Linz ... blah blah basic football game stuff. Then after the game, me and Linz went to Davidson to meet Cat and Bri as their buses came in from the stadium. We all decided to go to Waffle House ... blah blah. Cat I guess assumed I was going to take her home .. but I never actually said " yes, I'll take you home " I kind of gave a middle-of-road response. My mom called however on the way to Waffle House and told me to come home as soon as possible after we ate, and knowing Waffle House, that wasn't going to take more than 30 minutes or so. So Cat still wanted me to take her home and just not tell my parents. And I really wouldn't have minded doing that except for the fact that they expected me home within a certiain time, which meant I didn't have the time to take her home. So, I know her and Bri's nature, how they're sarcastic and bitchy and its really funny and cute, but ya know sometimes you can only take so much of it before you begin to take it personally. Cat, talking to Lindsay V (diff Lindsay) says " Hey, can you do me a big favor and take me home? " ... she replies asking wasn't I taking her home to which she says " No, bitch-face isn't taking me home." K. Thats alright ... I've been called worse by them before. But then after we pay, she goes back to Lindsay V while Bri's in the bathroom and asks again if she can take her home. Lindsay then asks why I can't take her home. And Cat replies " She can't take me home, shes afraid of her parents. They've got her whipped. " Wow. Now talk about good friends. I don't really care if she was joking or not but that really hurt. I just said " Mhm ... yea well I think I'm going to go now." And I just left. But did Cat give a shit? Hell no. And thats what I get for being such a good friend to her. I just don't understand why she and Bri are nice to me when they're seperate but while their together they show no mercy on me. It was really funny at first but they're really starting to take it a little far. I can't change them, but maybe they'll change themselves ... I can atleast pray.
SUNDAY ( halloween :} ) So after that little encounter, I was really not in the mood to spend much time with them. I went to the gym with my dad and my bro, worked out a bit ... Bri called, invited me to trick-or-treat with her, Johnathan and Chris called to invited me to Chris' for a bonfire and trick-or-treating. Kewl. We finished working out and went to the T-Mobile store to look at gettin some new cell phones. I didn't expect to get a new one that day, but the three of us all walked out with a total of 4 new Nokia T6010s for the family. Pretty nifty if I do say so mahself. We immediatly went to the mall and bought new faceplates so we could tell them apart. I got a really pretty solid blue one ^_^. But anyways. We then went to Panera Bread to eat dinner, and on the way home we picked up Davis so he could accompany me trick-or-treating that night. So, after we got home and I got ready, we drove to Bri's. Got there, Bri only gets Cat's bag and a bag for herself, not even bothering to get one for me or Davis and thats even after I asked for one. Whatever. So we walked around awhile ... blah blah. Then after gettin back to Bri's, Davis and I left to go to Chris'. I really didn't want to be around them if they were going to treat me like that any longer. I already wasn't in the mood. I try to just get over it but it's hard sometimes. And I know if one of them reads this theres a chance they'll get really offended. But I'm sorry it hurts me, ok? Thats just how I am. I can take beratement pretty well on the outside, but don't always let that fool you. SO ... Davis and I get lost on the way to Chris', but we eventually find the way and it's all kewl. And THEY atleast thought to give us bags to trick-or-treat with. So we actually got some candy this time around. ^_^ blah blah anyways ... nothing exciting really happened. Davis and I left a bit early since I knew Davis wasn't havin the best time cause those aren't exactly his favorite people, but I really appreciated him going along. I don't care what anybody says but he's always been there to talk to if Bri and Cat (or anyone really) have shunned me, whether on purpose or not ... like Homecoming weekend, but let's not go into that anymore. So anyways. I'm not trying to cause controversy between anyone, I'm just calling things how I see em. Cat and Bri, if y'all really don't mean for me to take what you say and do so literally, let me know every so often by trying not to act like you hate me. I'd really appreciate it.
SO how was y'all's weekend? Got in minid who you're gonna vote for? *sigh* Another thing that really put me in a bad mood this weekend is this reoccuring feeling of wanting to be loved. It really sucks to see all these couples and then just be standing there only imagining how good it must feel to be in someone else's arms. I think right now, that's one thing that would make me soo happy and contented atleast. Just to be outside, (if the damn weather ever realizes its fucking NOVEMBER AND NOT AUGUST ANYMORE) at night, in each other's arms, looking up at the placid night sky ... ah ... so sappy. Damn I hate my life. I wonder if I'll ever love again. I just hope God's hiding something really spectacular for me. All this crap I'm going thru is just sometimes unbearable. But I feel like it'll all be worth it at some point ... it just seems like that point isn't anywhere close by ... and won't be happenig anytime soon. Depression. Sadness. Loneliness. Sentence fragments are the only way to express how I truly feel. But then again I don't even think that can sum it up. Oh well. Keserasera, ne? Thanks for wasting your time reading about how much my life sucks. I appreciate your comments ... ^_^ Oyasuminasai ~
posted by: Jafo (reply)
post date: 11.01.04 (5:14 pm)
*makes jafo cry* dang it, i just came back to life and already i'm crying. *sets to work to find cure all for loneliness*
posted by: stacey (reply)
post date: 11.02.04 (10:05 am)
god you dont know how much you sound like me right now! damn join the drepression club lol i'm starting to create one ^_~ hey thing's will pick up for you and me both! i know i'm not always around to talk, but hey i hope that you find somone who makes you happy *gives hug* god i know what needing a guy feels like!!! its so damn overwhelming ~_~ takecare!! stace
posted by: kayoko (reply)
post date: 11.02.04 (5:02 pm)
you write such long posts..
the long paragraphs are very taunting(sp)....
i think...i think that everyone wants to be loved....they always think that....everyone else has some sorta love that they don't have....but..i guess it's not true..
it would be nice to have someone sit beside you and just be there....to cheer you up...to show support..to just help you thru everything and anything...
but that's just being ideal
weird, but i know what you mean by sentence fragments....i think...i'm taking this literally...where i end up repeating words and phrases a lot when i try to write about my feelings
night sky = out doors = bugs = mosquito bites = west nile (?)
it does suck...doesn't it?
but it's nice to read about other people feeling the same way....you're not the only one...
Reply to: Jafo
aw *offers a cheese doodle* ^_^ it'll all be ok! ( sore wa kitto yoshi keserasera yo! )
posted by: stace (reply)
post date: 11.04.04 (2:44 am)
funny thing is , it works both ways. somtimes i wonder who my friends actually are because i dont get a comment no matter what i say ~_~
posted by: Jafo (reply)
post date: 11.09.04 (6:33 pm)
Reply to: kayoko
fyi. on this very old post of yours. you are probably trying to use the word "daunting". yes?? (syn: "looming", "big", "overpowering")
"taunting" would be more like:: 'that bully is "tauning" me'. being mean or bullying. my most favorite analogy is a bully holding a twinky over the trash can. if you were to run and grab it, he'd just drop it. a helpless mean situation.
posted by: kayoko (reply)
post date: 11.10.04 (7:13 am)
Reply to: Jafo
oh...so taunting can't be used that way?
daunting, eh? new word of hte day...
i learnt that the word zealous was actually a word the other day..
posted by: POOPIEPANTS (reply)
post date: 11.10.04 (3:28 pm)
I SAW THAT YOU TALK TO THEM BC JUST POSTING IT UP ON YOUR BLOG IS ONLY GOING TO GIVE TENISON HAVE YOU TOLD THEM ALL THIS MAYBE THEY THINK YOU ARE SHUTING THEM OUT BECAUSE OF A BOY OR YOUR NEW FRIENDS? TRY TELL THEM THIS BEFORE THINGS GET WORSE
posted by: Jafo (reply)
post date: 11.10.04 (6:50 pm)
Reply to: kayoko
zealous is a good word. but is usually used to mean OVER zealous. so, has bad connotations.
i like learning new words. which is why i think i'm so attrached to learning new languages. but i'm not good at remembering things, so it's kinda hard. X)
